Friday, October 22, 2010
Surprisingly so I feel very calm today. I think it has to do with me knowing that this experience will be over, and I will be back in my comfort zone. All in all that makes me want to live up these next few weeks, because soon this will all be a memory. Theirs so many things I want to do in life, that I don't just want to waste time. I still don't get along with my "roommates" but I don't think that's going to change. Their is no respect level, but theirs not much I can do about it for now. I have to make the best of it, and no that their are people suffering around the world that don't even have a place to live. The world doesn't revolve around me and I do my best to make it seem smaller in a way that I want to make someone feel less lonely. Which I do feel, even if I am becoming friends with my coworkers. The sense that other close friends in my life are slipping isn't a fun one to have. Growing up I've had to move around a lot. That taught me how to keep friends, at least the one's that are worth keeping. I had another post that I had saved, written out of anger, but this is not what I want to be about. The point of all this is to let all my emotions and insecurities out one by one, until they don't seem that important at all.