I't almost 1am and all I can think of doing is writing. I'm starring at the blank space waiting to be filled by my overflowing thoughts. I received my laptop yesterday aftern being torn away from it for weeks. That is one less thing to worry about, since I thought I might not have it back in time to go to college. School starts Tuesday Jan.18,2011 and orientation is Jan.17. I will be taking a road trip because I live very far away from my college, which won't be a problem later on, because I will live on campus. I don't know who my roommate will be or anything about what my college experience will end up being, but I am very excited to find out. I'm tired of wondering what will happen, and I am ready to jump in and fully put myself out there. I had a great Christmas and a good New Year's Eve. These holidays were definitely a better experience than the 2009 holidays. Those were for the most part disasters.
When I look back at the year of 2010 I don't see anything that I would want to change. I traveled to places I've never been in and outside of the country, seen relatives I haven't seen in years, been built up and crushed, and most of all I have grown to become a better person. My real wish for 2011 is to have a better year than 2010, and discover myself more, without worrying as much about my future fitting an image I have in my head. In college I hope that I become stronger and independent. As independent as I felt in my "vacation" state, once I got home that went south. It's as if I am expected to be this self-indulgent, lazy person. That is an easy habit to fall into, but in college everything will be up to me. No family to crawl to when I fail, just me to make sure that I keep going. I can easily say goodbye to 2010, because it has been one of the best and hardest years I have had to face, but life goes on and so will I. Not always at pace with the rest of the world, but I have heard that it's not always a bad thing to make your own path in life.